Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Life is Sweet



















An energetic and pasty little boy runs across the parking lot, his face jubilant as he yells "Mommy!", and his little body (all 32 lbs of him) leaps into his mother's arms. His spindly legs wrap around her waist, his arms squeeze her neck tightly and he whispers into her ear, "I love you mommy! I missed you!". Once he releases the death grip, he pulls his head back, his eyes look straight into hers, he puckers his slightly dry lips and without any hesitation, he goes in for the kill. 


"MWAH!" he says.


This was yesterday afternoon and I've been beaming at our tender exchange ever since.

Being without my best pal for 11 days of uninterrupted parent-time (no contact whatsoever- not even a call) felt like forever but it that same instance, it went by really fast, too. I used to feel guilt for enjoying quiet and personal time away from Little Dude... like I wasn't a good mom if I had fun without him.... or if I found a refreshing and rejuvenating pleasure in it.

Once I realized that this was my new-found reality and would be for the next 14 years however, I decided to change my outlook on the whole thing and now, believe it or not, I actually look forward to this time.

Little Dude is my whole life... and it's taken me a while to get used to not being with him all the time, but you know what? I can adapt and I can make the best of it... and all the hard things that I thought to be impossible, are not only DOABLE but they can be very REWARDING as well. 

I guess it 's all in the eye of the beholder... and the way I see it, yesterday might have gone down as one of the sweetest moments I've ever had with my son. It may not seem like much to you, but for me it felt like a big blessing disguised as something small... because, even amidst the really hard and lonely times of being in a non-traditional family and sharing a child, I felt like life couldn't possibly be any better!

Did I mention that I'm so glad he's home? I can't stop smiling and kissing his cheeks... :)


**Anything that has you beaming lately? Even a little something like this? Tell me the reasons you have a smile on your face!


17 comments:

  1. So precious!!! Thanks for sharing. I've been smiling lately, too, because we all went through the temple for Bryson's (nephew) first time. So special! I'm glad Little Dude made it home to your arms.

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    1. Awww! I can't even believe this! He is that old already ;) WOW!

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  2. There is nothing sweeter than a son's kisses! So sweet.

    My boys are at sleepaway camp for a month. I pick them up on Sunday. I'm really starting to miss them right now and hope that they did not grow up too much :(

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    1. They always grow up while they're gone... tell me about it :)

      I bet you're glad to get them back! YAY!

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  3. Aww, this made me smile! I'm so happy to hear you're embracing life, even when Little Dude is gone for a few days. I mentioned in the last post that we don't have kids yet, but I just got home from being out of town and went to pick up my pup and he knocked me down to kiss me and shower me with licks! I know that is obviously TOTALLY different than the love of a child! but it's the closest thing that I've got right now to relate to that. :) I enjoy reading about motherhood on your blog, and I can imagine how amazing it will feel to share that moment with your little man!

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    1. You know what, Whitney?? I totally think this counts... a dog is a man's best friend, right?

      Thank you for your sweet words! It was amazing... and your story made me chuckle.. I thought that was just too darn cute!

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  4. how sweet! what has me beaming is being back home to Utah!! and my husband is less than a week from coming home! those are sortof big things, but i also got some potted plants today and every time i see them, i smile, they are happy plants!

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    1. Jo! Welcome back to UTAH! No AC? Holy moly!

      The countdown is ON and I am thrilled for you! Yeehaw! And happy plants are GOOOOOD :)

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  5. That is SO sweet. Kids ARE the best, aren't they? Tonight I took my two out at about 8 pm for a spontaneous trip to DQ for ice cream cones and then to the RV park where we watched the sunset & walked around admiring all the cute, tiny, well-kept homes. It was a great, unplanned evening that made me feel just like the sunset.

    On another note, since you mentioned it, why is little dude so pale? Do you sunscreen him a lot? I'm kind of a fanatic about sunscreening my kids and sometimes people comment about how white they are (mostly my dad who has probably never worn sunscreen in his life), but I love their milky, smooth skin. I wish someone had done it for me so I didn't have the age spots and such. Just wondering if you're the same or if he's just naturally "pasty" :D

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    1. Hannah,

      Little Dude is just flat out pasty.... PASTY, I tell you! I swear he's lacking pigmentation but the doctor says no. LOL. I do sunscreen him only because he's been like this from day one.... It's all nat.ur.al :)

      Your dad is so tan, huh?? haha!

      Oh and I love DQ

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  6. What's making me happy right now is late night after late night hanging out in the family room as a fam watching Olympics. It feels like party time every night and we are loving it!

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    1. WOW! You are up late Michelle! HA! You crack me up ;)

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  7. That is so sweet!! Posts like this make me so excited to have kids someday! :)

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  8. Why no contact the whole time? Was that healthier for you? Part of his dad's request? No judgement just trying to understand better.

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    1. Hi anon ;)

      I guess it's the way my ex and I interpreted the summer uniterupted parent time in our decree and Utah code. We both feel it'll be easier to vacation (especially in places without service) as well as being easier on all parties. Little dude can enjoy his time with his dad without me checking in during this time, and the same goes for my time too. Obviously we want what is best for our son... So if he wants or needs to call, he totally can!!! But, if he's happily enjoying his time, without needing to hear from me, we'd rather not interrupt that. And I actually like the independence and confidence that little dude is gaining.

      Hope this helps... ;)

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  9. Yes, that makes sense. Does your ex still read your blog? Does his family?

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  10. You know, I really don't know... And I don't worry about it anymore. No sense stressing about something I can't control... ;)

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